First Moments

I am back . I had a very long day today in school. But i felt the time i had after school wasnt enough at all. My baby brought me for movies today and i wanted to stay longer. lol

Where was I previously?

Yups about me and him...I shoudl definitely share about the first time i met him. I am from a all girls school that doesnt offer tamil language. So I had to go to tamil centre outside school two times a week for tamil lessons. Last year in July end, my teacher arranged for a group of us to go to Ping Yi Secondary School to take part in a Cultural Exhibition. We had to do a show about our culture. Our group from our tamil centre decided to do something like a fashion show that includes models wearing traditional costumes and exhibition on how hindu marraiges take place. I also contributed Indian fashion accessories for display at the exhibition. The show had to take place on the 17 of August 2007. We had a full dress rehearsal in class on the 16th August 2007. Everything went well untill one of our models failed to show up on the 16. He was a male model and he was sure that he could not make it for the show cus he wasnt feeling well. So we urgently needed a replacement for his position. The leader incharge for this whole crap went to the class next door and begged another one of our tamil teacher to recommend one guy from his class to help save the day. And she came back with our new model. That was the first time when i saw him. OUr classmate who wasnt feeling well managed to pass the costume to one of his frens to bring it to school. Fortunately the rehearsal went smoothly. I didnt really notice him much as i wasnt really interested in looking at him anyway. But to admit, amongst all, i felt that he was hmmm whats that word....ya ...he seemed to be outstanding in some way.

On the 17th of August, we were all ready to give our audiences a good show. Now we had another fucking problem. MY PARTNER DID NOT TURN UP. Everybody needed to do the walking on the stage thing ....in pairs. I WAS THE ONLY ONE DOING my part alone. I was very disappointed and upset. It got worse when some guys started teasing me when i was up on stage. After the show ended for the first batch of students who came to view the exhibition, i started tearing and i totally gave up. I was about to go change and go home, when He came up to me to ask whats the problem. I told him and well....HE went straight to those guys in the hall infront of my eyes. I dont really know about the conversation he had with them but one of those guys ended up saying sorry and shook hands with him. Now i was noticing him. I mean i never had a person to do this for me in my life. Maybe he would have done the same if some other girl was tearing too. That was what i thought. But something in my heart told me that thats not all. I had to change my mind when i looked at other girls. I mean come on he looked like abit fair and cute. I was like not so gud in my looks. Worse! i was in my traditional clothes. I mean if he was to go for a girl there in the show then it would not be me. Trust me there were girls who were more gud looking than me. I had very short hair last time.

You know i used to think that guys always go for girls with long beautiful hair...must be fair...then the face must be smooth la no pimples la....BLAH BLAH....so i was like "forget it...dont dream so much la" So i carried on until the end of the show. Well after we changed back into our uniforms, i was standing on the stage with my friend, ready to leave. But i kinda got info that there were a number of Ping Yi guy outside the gate. I didnt feel right to go alone with my fren, So i decided to call one of the guys to follow me. WELL, i asked him whether he could come with us till the gate. He was like ok. I realised when we were walking out, he kept fiddling with his handphone. it was like trying to signal us about something. Finally at the gate my hero asked me for my hp number. Too bad i didnt have one at the point of time. His next target for hp number was my fren. And ya he got it. SIGH! i was like ya ya...now both gonna make fren...he gonna flirt with her....and in about like ten minutes i forgot about everything. I was sitting in the bus going home with my fren and she got a message. I knew it was him. i was like " trust me ...its him smsing u ...wah now some people flirting laaa...enjoy!" Yup she said i was ryte. It was hime. But the message said "tell your friend, she is sweet" (or was it cute...not sure) . I was like..."errr". I had no idea what to do. She had no credit in her prepaid so i cudnt give a thank you reply. So what i did, i called him from the public phone and told him thanks. later i was talking to him on the phone at home. ON THE SAME night , he proposed....lol...guess what..i said NO.....

I needed time hello...you cant really expect me to say yes i love you!....One part of my heart told me NO because i had enuff of guys....another part said....do what you think is right for yourself. 18 AUGUST 07, i went out to watch Rush Hour 3. he kept on asking me...YES? OR NO?....i cudnt decide cus...another guy? in my life? no way!.....i totally decided that i shoud say a no. I turned to look at him...and he suddenly took my fingers. "You nails are nice...long nails..." I dunnoe how...but we ended up holding hands....

That was the moment i realised....past is always the past....i can start a new life follow a new path...Since then, till now...and even in the future....My heart will always beat his name...even after my last breath....his name is there on my skin.....i really miss you baby....love you alot ....

i gtg...to get to bed and to dream bout miie baby

(coming up: how i had to cope with his nonsense for the first 5months and my schooling)