Welcome Everybody

That's Me! There's a smile there on my face but there was darkness beyond my shine.

I have done many mistakes in my life for many to hate me. And i have never blamed myself. IT WAS LIKE I WAS ALWAYS RIGHT. It just made my life more painful. I lost friends my family never wanted me to be part of them. Where was God?

Nobody has ever seen God. It is because God lives in our hearts forever. We dont see him. We realise him. We follow and obey him. He makes our lives more meaningful when we follow his way. I hated my life so much that i hated God even more.

Soon i came to realise that noone is to be blamed except for me. People hated me because "I" had attitude problem. My parents did not trust me because "I" Betrayed their trust. I could not manage well in school because "I" did not make the effort to be more focused. All i cared was fun, boyfriend, smoking and that was life for me.

My O'levels are coming up this October. I am not going to end up anywhere if I don't start changing. I trusted many guys in my life. But none stood there beside me to guide me. EXCEPT for one. He came into my life on the 18/08/07. It was the happiest moment in my life. Yeah we had loads of ups and downs. We went through hell together. No matter what happens....my baby didnt let go of me. He proved to me that he is a gem who really cares for my well-being. I just want to make it clear to my friends and to everybody who is gonna read this. I am not who i was. I am the who has found a new begining and a new aim for my life. I will say more about my baby next time....

Signing off! Icy